An Open Letter To The Rockford Man Who Made Me Realize My Worth

Breakups are hard, especially when you've been together for 3 years and you realize there's nothing either of you can do to make it work.

I just recently went through a breakup with my ex.  We lived together, built a life together, and never thought our adventure would end so soon.  After 3 years, we finally called it quits.  Now, it may not have been 100% mutual... maybe like 20/80, but it honestly was the best decision for the both of us.  This meant we go our separate ways and we begin our new chapters in life without each other.  It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

To the Rockford guy I spent 3 years in a relationship with, I apologize.

I'm sorry for many reasons.

#1: You didn't deserve someone who wasn't giving 100% anymore.  You deserve a partner who wants to spend the rest of their life with you.  I thought I did, but realized I'd been craving a more stronger love than what we had.

#2: All the memories we made are now tainted with sadness.  In time, I hope we can have the friendship we used to have without any bad blood.

#3: I'm sorry for hurting you. You were my best friend, my biggest supporter, and always showed me I was worth it.  My intentions were genuine, my love was real, and you never had to question my loyalty.

Giving myself "me" time made me realize you truly taught me I'm worth it.

For anybody reading this and going through a similar situation right now, just know you're more valuable than you think.  It took me so long to come to terms with that.

An Open Letter To The Rockford Man Who Made Me Realize My Worth

In the 3 years we were together, you taught me that I'm only human.  I always thought I had to be perfect for someone to fully love me, but you didn't care that I had flaws.  I drooled in my sleep, snored when I had a stuffy nose, and had the worst allergies you'd ever seen.  You still made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.

Even during my most vulnerable, weakest moments you were there to pick me up.  You always told me to strive to be the best and I succeeded because of that.  You challenged me to accept myself as I am and not what I thought I had to be for you.

I've never felt such compassion, empathy, and devotedness from someone until I met you in 2019.  We went from friends, to partners, to creating a world we could thrive in together.  I'm so glad we were able to spend those years together, I don't think I could've done it with anybody else.  I regret nothing.

In the end, you taught me something so valuable: I'm worth it.

I've come to realize I am allowed to have standards. I deserve to be loved the way I choose.  I can be anything I want without questioning my capabilities.  I don't have to settle for less.  I can be completely and unapologetically myself.

So, I thank you for being my partner in crime for so long.  Thank you for waking up early and listening to me on the radio every day. Though we may not be the best for each other, just know you were the best for me throughout our entire relationship.

I wish you the best and can't wait to see you do big things.  Much love.